Ordinary Stories of (Un)Ordinary Lives

You have no idea what I can believe! by martsolka

I believe in a tangible world with loopholes that lead to ostensibly invisible realms. I can believe in things beyond my ken and I believe I still have the right to judge things within my expertise. I believe in apt innuendos and tormented credos. I believe in absolute logic as long as it is not the so-called ”human” one. I believe that people are irreverent creatures, that equanimity is easy to reach and each one of us can achieve it if only one could stall for a second and look around.

I believe in clandestine rituals that are your own choice only if you fully understand them in depth. I believe there is no such thing as humanitarianism if you have never felt pure love. I believe a brisk breeze can change the way you perceive reality while a cloudy day can easily drive you to suicide even if you are the happiest person on earth.

I believe in rainforests, primitive ones with trees that speak to each other and I believe you can actually join the conversation if you pay attention and listen for once. I believe development depends to ones perception and you can never be sure that your own perception is the right one for others. I believe money can save lives but usually they destroy them. I believe common sense is a big joke and once you’ve seen a child dying of common diarrhoea you can understand why. I believe there will be no better human voice than Beth Gibbon’s just because it’s utterly un-human. I believe atheism is the best religion one can have faith in and the rest are just poor means to control the masses.

I believe a war can be constructive and fair as long as it does not involve firearms and dead bodies but there are times that you need the later to make a war constructive. I believe falling in love can happen more than once in your life and whoever says it can’t has never experienced ultimate love. I believe drugs can open your mind once your mind is already open, in any other case just avoid them. I believe Africa has its own thing going on and if we-westerns-want to help we better follow the trend otherwise we might consider that leaving Africa alone is the most humanitarian thing we can do.

I believe children shouldn’t die and life span in developed countries shouldn’t be that high, after all we are too many. I believe tolerability is one of the elements I will never understand about human nature, after all it is only a manifestation of cowardice and I don’t get it how humans can be so fucking cowards. I believe life is precious for each one of us but not for the universe as a whole. I believe non-governmental organizations are more governmental than the government itself while they are mostly depend on anti-governmental personnel. I believe that defiance has nothing to do with atrocity, that intensity can be deceptive and alacrity is a venture that shudders me.

I believe chirping cicadas is the best lullaby during a summer’s day. I believe adultery is overrated and once you are loyal to what you feel faithfulness will not make any difference. I believe in ultimate anarchy as long as people know what they want, in any other case a wisdom monarch is a better solution than any of the current democracies worldwide. I believe once in this life I was a moonchild dreaming in the shadows of the willow, talking to the trees, sleeping on the steps of a fountain, playing hide and seek with the ghosts of dawn, waiting of the sun on the mountain. I believe in fairy tales with unhappy endings they make me easily cry and I don’t have the chance to cry a lot lately.

I believe Sam is the coolest character I ever encountered in a book and I am rather sorry that I stole her idea but I am sure if she were a real person would understand. I believe YOU are enjoying this monologue only because I enjoy writing it this very moment under candle light somewhere in Africa, past midnights. Hahahahah… I believe laughing is more essential than blood if you want to keep your heart beating. I believe my English can be totally nasty, after all I am from Kalamata, but for sure they get better after a glass of Jameson. I believe in fudge factors and blinks of intelligence. I believe we can do more than we think we are able to and we need no god to tell us that, for a good friend is enough. I believe accepting death brings balance to ones life and balance is the key to happiness. I believe Neil Gaiman rules cause he knows when it’s time to end a story and I should follow his paradigm.

I believe life is simple in a complex way that we may never understand and that will be our ending.

(Inspired by Neil Gaiman’s novel “American Gods”)i

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